where in the world is kepulauan ayau

jadi saya udah nyampe dengan mengantuk, lapar dan capek pada rabu pagi yg cerah dan indah d manokwari karena itu begitu sampe d hotel kita langsung makan :D trus bobo smpe siang menjelang sore :D dan kebangun lagi karena lapar :D hehehe

anyway, malam ini kita dikasi SK penempatan. yeah and i got kepulauan Ayau. yg batas utara-nya itu filipina, batas timur kepulauan palau....sinyal gakada, listrik gak jelas

i said,"what?!"

ya udah lah.....gila...gila...gila....

btw, baru tau tadi pagi...ternyata hotel-nya ada hotspot-nya! jadi biar tengah malem-pun dijabanin deh biar bisa online grateees.....

The Script - The Man Who Can't Be Moved

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Policeman says son you can't stay here,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a girl...
Oohoohwoo
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world...
Hmmmm

and maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner...
Cos you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
[Repeat in background]

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.

intimidated?!

ever feel intimidated? i do. in my case, by patients. i feel lightly intimidated by patients who ask too much questions about many things. i feel moderately intimidated by patients who look and talk intellectually. it's like they have this aura and a sense of authority that can make people feel small and inferior.

if it happens. i tell myself,"hey, they know nothing about what happens to their body. that's why they come to you. so just show them what you have, what you know and what you can."

puyer over

stelah ribut2 dan gonjang-ganjing masalah puyer berlalu, sekarang saya bisa menulis resep puyer dengan tenang. gak ada lagi ibu2 yang minta anaknya untuk tidak dikasi puyer. it was just a temporer freakout. sama kyk masalah bakso berformalin, ayam tiren, daging gelonggongan, susu bermelanin, kolor ijo, lumpur lapindo, alda rizma, ryan jombang, marcella zalianty case, barack obama, jalur gaza and so on.

ato apa org indonesia begitu? hot-hot chicken shit (panas2 tai ayam) gitu. begitu ada isu hangat atau kontroversi mengenai suatu hal pasti bakal meledak semeledak-meledaknya. semua koran, semua tivi, radio sampe internet membahas isu tersebut. tapi 1-2 minggu kemudian langsung reda. bahkan hilang dari pemberitaan, pembicaraan di pasar, di bis kota, di kantor, kampus, gang-gang sempit. seolah isu tersebut menguap entah kemana. gak jelas apa isu tersebut telah mencapai suatu solusi atau memang orang2 sudah bosan membahasnya and then they just go on with their lives. dari segi news-making, mungkin isu tersebut itu sudah basi sehingga media males memberitakannya lagi. enough.

anyway, saya gak akan ngomong mengenai puyer di sini. saya pikir para pasien (bukan konsumen medis!) jgn takut untuk bertanya lebih banyak kepada dokternya mengenai penyakit yang diderita dan prognosisnya. mengenai sediaan obat yg diberikan berikut efeknya. it's time bagi pasien untuk lebih aware terhadap kesehatan serta obat2an yg masuk ke dalam tubuhnya.

pengamen bis patas AC

pengamen bis patas AC dari bekasi to anywhere in jakarta seem to have a way of choosing songs to be sung on busses. because it looks like that whatever they sing fit almost perfectly to the atmosphere, situation and condition on the bus. mellow but not too whiny. rock but not too loud. just fit.

and then there's this guy with his sandiwara-radio-lookalike monologue. gave me the chill all through the performance. he imitated all the character in his story-a young man, old men and as narrator.

i also amazed by percussion players. bukan cuma karena susah payah-nya nenteng2 gendang dan drum ke atas bis, tapi juga how he (there's one particular pengamen) plays the instrument. the way he snaps his fingers on the instrument. can never figure out which finger creates the sound because he was playing so fast and so skillful.

ada lagi trio pengamen. anak2. ABG-lah. suaranya cempreng dan keras. pake gitar kecil, gendang dan botol plastik yg isinya pasir. begitu mereka main, org2 satu bis langsung pada kaget dan terbangun dari tidurnya sementara sy senyum2 geli aja. pasti byk yg ngutuk ini anak2 karena ngagetin dan ngebangunin mereka. aseli. mana biasanya mereka medley, gak ada jeda antara lagu satu dgn berikutnya. trus temponya juga lebih cepat dari aslinya. sehingga bis yg awalnya tenang, adem-ayem, tiba2 jadi ribut, riuh, telinga jadi pekak karena suara mereka mantul2 dalam bis.

Resolusi 2009 #5

alhamdulillah tercapai juga resolusi 2009 no. 5. meskipun sudah smpe no.5 out of 6 tapi sebenarnya masih ada dua nomor yg belum tercapai. soon i hope! :D

trima kasih smua untuk doa, dukungan dan semangatnya!

pronouncing death

pronouncing death is one of the hardest and most difficult things to dong along this so-far career. hardest karena all eyes are on you waiting to find out apa yang terjadi pada keluarga, teman atau kerabat mereka. sementara itu perawat dengan siap menunggu instruksi selanjutnya. most difficult karena you can't afford to be wrong! kematian merupakan sesuatu yg menyedihkan dan sedapat mungkin dihindari (walaupun pada akhirnya kita semua akan mati!) karena perasaan yang ditimbulkan very devastating. the fact that you can't be with the one you love anymore is heartbreaking sehingga diagnosisnya akan menyebabkan 'kegemparan' lokal di klinik (or anywhere else). liat aja d film2 (and my real life) betapa sulitnya seorang dokter menyampaikan bahwa pasiennya telah meninggal kepada keluarga sang pasien karena tidak ingin menyebabkan kesedihan yg mendalam pd keluarga tsb. siapa sih yg mau jadi pembawa pesan buruk?! NOBODY. other reason: a part of us feel that we have failed.

selain itu, you don't want to pronounce someone dies only to find out that he/she wakes up just before he/she's burried, right?! so with the available tools (yaitu stetoskop, spigmomanometer, penlight and those years in med school) you must diagnose. correctly.